He told me that he has another identity in him, which comes out sometimes to protect him, but he doesn't know what he's done when the other identity is active.
... I don't know. Truthfully, I know very little about it, other than that this affliction can be traced through my bloodline's history. My family refused to speak of it to me.
[Years of wondering if I was just losing my mind...]
I don't think it's a spirit, exactly. It's... not me, but it is not a wholly separate entity from myself either.
... I imagine it plays a part, though even without it, such beliefs are also carved into our culture by now. I do not know if my father ever heard the voice, considering he became more pacifistic towards the end of his life, rather than more violent.
[It's supposed to only get worse. At least, it is for...
he looks down at his hands, now folded in his lap.]
But it would not surprise me if Mugen hears and embraces it.
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week 6, friday, hotel
anyway, the morning after the drinking game, rin is lying in bed. ]
... I guess that's the last time we'll be doing that together.
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also ig i have to mention that he's possibly injured but, like, patched up.]
Mm. Well, it is not impossible to have another gathering, but I suppose there will be much fewer opportunities for it from now on.
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he will sit up and look at his injuries ]
... Did you get into a fight?
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... Ah. Rang and I decided to spar. You need not worry.
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That doesn't sound like him.
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[help]
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And you sparred? For real?
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... Why didn't he heal you both after?
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They're not particularly significant wounds?
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Maybe he was trying to appease your, uh. [ uhhh ] Violent thoughts?
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... If that were the case, then I would be appreciative.
[Though I doubt that to be the case, and even if it was...]
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... I've been wondering. Why you keep thinking like that. [ he looks a little hesitant, ] Is it like Livio and Razlo?
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hikari looks away for a few moments.]
... I cannot say, as I don't know exactly what the situation is with Livio and Razlo.
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Oh yeah, he explained in his last message to me.
He told me that he has another identity in him, which comes out sometimes to protect him, but he doesn't know what he's done when the other identity is active.
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hikari just kind of gazes into the distance as though thinking, before he finally replies.]
... Then while there are similarities, our circumstances aren't quite the same.
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Is it like... a spirit? That you have inside you?
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... I don't know. Truthfully, I know very little about it, other than that this affliction can be traced through my bloodline's history. My family refused to speak of it to me.
[Years of wondering if I was just losing my mind...]
I don't think it's a spirit, exactly. It's... not me, but it is not a wholly separate entity from myself either.
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It's inherited?
[ Definitely not DID then. ]
Is that why your clan has valued strength and warfare so much, because of this condition?
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[It's supposed to only get worse. At least, it is for...
he looks down at his hands, now folded in his lap.]
But it would not surprise me if Mugen hears and embraces it.
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It just seems like it's kind of important.
[ especially if it's getting worse ]
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Others know us as accursed. That is all I know.
[And that I have been told I will lose to it.
—and then his thoughts snap shut, as though he didn't mean for that to slip out.]
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Why? You were told you'd give into it, and that's it? No information that could actually help?
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