imagine i left her as twelve the entire game. no she's fine. she's an adult again! she had a bunch of bullet wounds in her back, slash wounds across her arms and back, and a nasty bite wound on her forearm, but those are healed to the point that she won't die. they're still pretty gross, though.
she's at the first aid center in one of the beds, and she's got her fingers under a hair tie around her wrist. she pulls it back. and then lets it snap against her wrist, once, twice. a third time. ]
[ has there ever been a cyoa where i did not have a character come out nearly dead
when he reaches out to touch her, she shifts - takes his hand, if he'll let her. it's grounding. she likes touch. ]
Hah - hah, yeah, it sucked, understatement. [ ... ] It's okay. I... I don't even really know what to say about it. It was just exhausting. Like trying to be something I'm not for hours.
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imagine i left her as twelve the entire game. no she's fine. she's an adult again! she had a bunch of bullet wounds in her back, slash wounds across her arms and back, and a nasty bite wound on her forearm, but those are healed to the point that she won't die. they're still pretty gross, though.
she's at the first aid center in one of the beds, and she's got her fingers under a hair tie around her wrist. she pulls it back. and then lets it snap against her wrist, once, twice. a third time. ]
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Vi? Hey.
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Oh - Rin. [ at least she recognizes him. ] Hey.
... I'm okay.
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[ He doesn't believe that, but he'll just wander closer. ]
Someone got you all healed up? ... As much as you can, anyway.
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Yeah. That machine thing is crazy. I'm still full of holes, but I'll live. [ she will make room for him to sit if he wants? ]
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Have you been on one of those before?
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[ a little nod. ]
Yeah. Last round I went on one too. This one was way different.
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[ worse? better?? ]
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Slower. Less fighting. [ more mental trauma and less injuries ]
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He frowns... Reaching out to briefly touch her hand. ]
It sounds like it sucked.
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when he reaches out to touch her, she shifts - takes his hand, if he'll let her. it's grounding. she likes touch. ]
Hah - hah, yeah, it sucked, understatement. [ ... ] It's okay. I... I don't even really know what to say about it. It was just exhausting. Like trying to be something I'm not for hours.
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Because you had a fake identity?
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I was and wasn't me. Had a whole background that wasn't mine, but... similar. It wasn't like that the first time.
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[ Glances at her. ]
It kind of haunts you.
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[ deep breath. ]
Like a stain that you can't scrub out. [ she's always going to remember the girl that said yes. ]
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You can't really scrub it with logic and reasoning. [ "It's not real", etc. ] Do you... wanna talk about it?
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[ she's okay with the hand hold, though! she likes that, and she'll hold his hand tightly. ]
If you want to hear about it, I can tell you. It won't help or hurt.
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[ At least so he knows what hurt her, and what to avoid if this place tries to weaponize those hardships again later on. ]
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... Went to summer camp. Met God and the Devil. Turned into monsters.
I've been told that's not new.
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[ Shuffles a little closer to pat her shoulder gently with his free hand. ]
If you want help taking your mind off it too, I can try to help.