[ has there ever been a cyoa where i did not have a character come out nearly dead
when he reaches out to touch her, she shifts - takes his hand, if he'll let her. it's grounding. she likes touch. ]
Hah - hah, yeah, it sucked, understatement. [ ... ] It's okay. I... I don't even really know what to say about it. It was just exhausting. Like trying to be something I'm not for hours.
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Have you been on one of those before?
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[ a little nod. ]
Yeah. Last round I went on one too. This one was way different.
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[ worse? better?? ]
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Slower. Less fighting. [ more mental trauma and less injuries ]
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He frowns... Reaching out to briefly touch her hand. ]
It sounds like it sucked.
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when he reaches out to touch her, she shifts - takes his hand, if he'll let her. it's grounding. she likes touch. ]
Hah - hah, yeah, it sucked, understatement. [ ... ] It's okay. I... I don't even really know what to say about it. It was just exhausting. Like trying to be something I'm not for hours.
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Because you had a fake identity?
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I was and wasn't me. Had a whole background that wasn't mine, but... similar. It wasn't like that the first time.
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[ Glances at her. ]
It kind of haunts you.
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[ deep breath. ]
Like a stain that you can't scrub out. [ she's always going to remember the girl that said yes. ]
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You can't really scrub it with logic and reasoning. [ "It's not real", etc. ] Do you... wanna talk about it?
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[ she's okay with the hand hold, though! she likes that, and she'll hold his hand tightly. ]
If you want to hear about it, I can tell you. It won't help or hurt.
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[ At least so he knows what hurt her, and what to avoid if this place tries to weaponize those hardships again later on. ]
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... Went to summer camp. Met God and the Devil. Turned into monsters.
I've been told that's not new.
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[ Shuffles a little closer to pat her shoulder gently with his free hand. ]
If you want help taking your mind off it too, I can try to help.