Reunions have... generally not gone well for me, as you may recall. [a beat, and then quickly—] Not that I expect it to go poorly with Nahida.
[she is highly unlikely to try and kill him, which will put this above most reunions he has.]
I am happy for the chance to speak with her again, and there is much I wish to say... but I suppose, even knowing Nahida has a kind heart and that it's ungracious of me to think this—I am uncertain. All I have been able to do is watch them from this side, but the same isn't true of them.
[it's an awkward phrasing, of someone who has reached this point of confiding in rin but isn't quite ready to vocalize exactly what he's feeling.]
Hikari, think about your relationship with Guifei. With everyone else that you've reunited with that came here.
We're close, and we're here for each other. I promise, Nahida won't be any different. She'll be glad to see you. [ He shakes his head. ] And... I told you. That I felt guilty about not killing D. About dying and disappointing my team.
... It's hard to shake. I won't lie. But it's not your fault, and I'm sure all they care about is that you're okay.
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You don't think so?
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pause]
... I don't think she does not consider me a teammate, explicitly...?
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Oh, that's good. [ am i interpreting what hikari's saying correctly ] Right?
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but anyway hikari's gaze flicks away for just a split-second in what might look like guilt before he resumes a normal, blank expression.]
Yes.
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he looks worriedly at him. ]
Hikari...?
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Yes...?
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... I'm fine.
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[ ... ]
But it's okay if you're not.
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he doesn't have anything to say to that, it seems.]
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You don't have to if you don't want to. But you've listened to me so often, I thought I'd return the favour.
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... You will think me foolish.
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Not a chance, Hikari.
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Reunions have... generally not gone well for me, as you may recall. [a beat, and then quickly—] Not that I expect it to go poorly with Nahida.
[she is highly unlikely to try and kill him, which will put this above most reunions he has.]
I am happy for the chance to speak with her again, and there is much I wish to say... but I suppose, even knowing Nahida has a kind heart and that it's ungracious of me to think this—I am uncertain. All I have been able to do is watch them from this side, but the same isn't true of them.
[it's an awkward phrasing, of someone who has reached this point of confiding in rin but isn't quite ready to vocalize exactly what he's feeling.]
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Hikari, think about your relationship with Guifei. With everyone else that you've reunited with that came here.
We're close, and we're here for each other. I promise, Nahida won't be any different. She'll be glad to see you. [ He shakes his head. ] And... I told you. That I felt guilty about not killing D. About dying and disappointing my team.
... It's hard to shake. I won't lie. But it's not your fault, and I'm sure all they care about is that you're okay.
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... Thank you, Rin. You are a source of encouragement as always.
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[ he rubs his neck. ]
I don't expect what I said to fix everything. It's okay if you still don't believe it.
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[emotions aren't always easy, but he means that much, at least.]