He hesitates a moment, ] I don't want everyone to realize. I was great as a kid. Good with people, good at swimming. My family and my friends really believed I could become something great.
... I don't want them to realize they were wrong. I'm nothing great.
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Oh, right. [ ... ] I went there to train, it wasn't running away.
... But. I do run away a lot, I guess.
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[ the way he talked about his frustrations... she doesn't know him the best or understand him super well, but she can hazard some guesses. ]
What are you so afraid of, Rin?
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He hesitates a moment, ] I don't want everyone to realize. I was great as a kid. Good with people, good at swimming. My family and my friends really believed I could become something great.
... I don't want them to realize they were wrong. I'm nothing great.
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[ it's a little hard for her to relate or understand because she really has so much self-confidence. her perspective is self-absorbed in this way. ]
How do you define being great?
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but no, he thinks about it. ]
Someone smart enough to be able to piece together evidence whenever we have a trial. Or who knows how to comfort people when they're struggling.
Someone who could erase others to try and save us all, instead of running away.
[ okay, he referenced haru a little bit ]
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You can do the first as well as anyone else here. I don't know about the second, but that's not important to me.
And you were robbed of the chance to do the last, so you'll never know if you could step up to it.
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It's not important to you, so that's it? [ He seems amused. ] I know that I should stop beating myself up and focus on moving forward.
Some days it's easier than others.
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[ move on, yeah. it's a callous way to do things, but that's what she's like. ]
As long as you can move forward eventually, that's a starting point. All you have to do is start.