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[ shenhe... ]
... It's okay to be afraid. [ he laces his hands together ] Because I think... the chances of something bad happening are pretty high. We're in totally unchartered territory.
[ he gives her an honest look. ]
But I know that whenever you're around, you've made things better for me. Not worse.
... It's okay to be afraid. [ he laces his hands together ] Because I think... the chances of something bad happening are pretty high. We're in totally unchartered territory.
[ he gives her an honest look. ]
But I know that whenever you're around, you've made things better for me. Not worse.
[she blinks down at his hand twining with her own, and then at him again. and she takes that in.
she's quiet for a moment.]
I'm glad for that. [she says, her shoulders relaxing a little.] I told Jonas once that I want to be the sort of person that helps, rather than hurts.
[...] You make me feel like I am doing something right, Rin.
she's quiet for a moment.]
I'm glad for that. [she says, her shoulders relaxing a little.] I told Jonas once that I want to be the sort of person that helps, rather than hurts.
[...] You make me feel like I am doing something right, Rin.
[she startles really, really hard when he leans against her, nearly off the bench. but when she realizes who it is, like... vaguely, vaguely, she knows this is rin and this is her captain and he is an axe just like her --
no, wait. no. she's not. he's not.
but he is rin, and her arm shakes and then wraps around him. she turns to hold onto him.]
no, wait. no. she's not. he's not.
but he is rin, and her arm shakes and then wraps around him. she turns to hold onto him.]
[ She puts an arm around her and he's so grateful. She always looks after him, takes care of him, is gentle with him despite the wounds carved deep into her.
She's here, and he's so grateful.
He turns to press his head against hers, feeling the ache that exists between them both. ]
I... We made it out.
She's here, and he's so grateful.
He turns to press his head against hers, feeling the ache that exists between them both. ]
I... We made it out.
[her breath whistles a little when she breathes in, but at least she's breathing.]
You... I. [she starts, and her voice is hoarse. she hasn't used it in a while - she bluescreened somewhere in the middle of the beach battle and just never really recovered from it.] You died.
[she holds him a little more tightly.]
You... I. [she starts, and her voice is hoarse. she hasn't used it in a while - she bluescreened somewhere in the middle of the beach battle and just never really recovered from it.] You died.
[she holds him a little more tightly.]
[ ... ]
Yeah. [ He feels strangely numb about it. Like it doesn't even matter. Like his life doesn't matter anymore, not after what he did and what he failed to do.
But he understands that it must've hurt her, so he puts his arms around her too, resting his head atop hers. ]
I'm sorry. I know you tried... I know you wanted to protect us.
Yeah. [ He feels strangely numb about it. Like it doesn't even matter. Like his life doesn't matter anymore, not after what he did and what he failed to do.
But he understands that it must've hurt her, so he puts his arms around her too, resting his head atop hers. ]
I'm sorry. I know you tried... I know you wanted to protect us.
[ He's quiet, because he doesn't want to ask. He doesn't want to hurt her either, but he doesn't know what happened while they were separated.
He doesn't know what happened to leave her like that. ]
... I saw my friend... my sister, they were kids.
I couldn't kill them.
He doesn't know what happened to leave her like that. ]
... I saw my friend... my sister, they were kids.
I couldn't kill them.
... I couldn't either.
[she says, after a moment.]
I saw Nahri. Wolfwood. They were children. I wanted to save them. [she brings a hand up, absently, and runs her fingers through his hair.] I didn't.
[...] You shouldn't have had to even consider it.
[she says, after a moment.]
I saw Nahri. Wolfwood. They were children. I wanted to save them. [she brings a hand up, absently, and runs her fingers through his hair.] I didn't.
[...] You shouldn't have had to even consider it.
[ That's so unbelievably cruel. Who would do such a thing?
He grips the fabric of her shirt. Is any part of her clothing still bloodied, by the way? ]
None of us should have. [ There's a very clear anger in his voice, sadness giving way to frustration. ] You— tried so hard to save us, Shenhe. You even.
[ killed the people you love. ]
But I. I wasted your sacrifice.
He grips the fabric of her shirt. Is any part of her clothing still bloodied, by the way? ]
None of us should have. [ There's a very clear anger in his voice, sadness giving way to frustration. ] You— tried so hard to save us, Shenhe. You even.
[ killed the people you love. ]
But I. I wasted your sacrifice.
[ok well she'll come find him eventually after he LICKED HER BLOOD OFF HIS FINGERS
she is. tired, mostly, she has no idea what to feel about any of this, only that she feels a lot, and that she's like... lonely, almost. that's the only emotion she really feels, and it sucks!
so she seeks rin out, because she usually doesn't feel lonely when it comes to him.]
she is. tired, mostly, she has no idea what to feel about any of this, only that she feels a lot, and that she's like... lonely, almost. that's the only emotion she really feels, and it sucks!
so she seeks rin out, because she usually doesn't feel lonely when it comes to him.]
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