allstarz / kaworu

[damp]

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week 2, monday, aquarium

[damp]

[ Just walking around... pausing when he sees Kaworu. ]

Kaworu. How're you doing...?

[peripheries]

[He's standing at one of the tanks, Lady in his arms, letting her watch all the fish and occasionally paw at the glass.

He looks over.]

Oh, I'm... healing.

[damp]

[ Smiles at Lady! ]

That's good. Don't be afraid to complain if you need something, okay?

[peripheries]

I suppose. I'm trying to complain less. So people don't worry about me.

[She is beautiful and her coat is so shiny.]

[damp]

What's wrong with people worrying about you?

[peripheries]

If people spend too much time worrying about you, then you become a nuisance.

[damp]

... Yeah, I get that.

It's annoying too when people treat me like a clueless kid.

[peripheries]

I know they mean well.

But you're right, it's really annoying.

[damp]

Yeah, they're just trying to shelter us.

But no one wants to be on the team's second string.

[ sports ]

week 2, thursday

[damp]

[ Is he resting in the first aid room like a good boy or did he boot himself somewhere else. ]

Kaworu...?

[peripheries]

[He is resting in first aid... Under some blankets with a fever patch on his forehead.

At the sight of Rin, he tries to sit up in the cot.]

Hey.

[damp]

Hey.

[ He will set down a bag with some fruit and drinks on a side table. ]

Do you want to keep resting? I can come back later.

[peripheries]

I'm tired of resting.

[His voice is hoarse and raspy from coughing.]

...Don't think I'll be able to make the relay team though.

[See? A joke? he's fine.]

[damp]

[ Okay, he'll smile. ]

Don't worry, we won't go without you. [ Sitting down. ] You're not... bleeding out anymore, are you?

[peripheries]

I don't know if I truly know how to swim that well anyway.

[He shakes his head and shifts a little to show how everything is already starting to close and scar up.]

It's good we have that thing and don't have to hope people get items.

[damp]

It is... one bonus. But I guess that they don't want us dying from these adventures.

[ It would get in the way of the murdering. ]

And you don't? Want to learn when you're a little more patched up?

[peripheries]

Yeah... Even though I think must of us would prefer to die on them if we have to die. Then it wouldn't be anyone's fault.

[So yeah, it gets in the way of murder in the specific way they want. Trials and executions.]

I'd like that. I've never really tried to swim. Just floated a little. But the water doesn't frighten me.

[damp]

[ It's a little unnerving to hear that they'd like to die, but it's true. ]

Good. The water's a great way to build up your strength after an injury too, since it's no impact exercise.

[ hehe ]

What else do you like to do?

Week 3, Tuesday

[peripheries]

[Kaworu is sitting in the Gate Area of terminal 1, leaning back in one of the chairs with Lady in his lap, eyes closed like he might be dreaming. Then suddenly a memory that is not yours, full of harsh and industrial spaces, begins to run through your mind.]

[damp]

[ the way i'm one of the only people on earth who hasn't read or watched nge ]

... Kaworu. What was that?

[peripheries]

[DON'T WORRY it's just LIKE THAT. He opens his eyes and shrugs.]

Attempting to make a connection with someone that I was fond of, though by our very nature, we were diametrically opposed. I wasn't made for it, I was made for one purpose, and it was not that, so I failed.

[damp]

Do you still think you can't make connections with people?

[peripheries]

No. But it is difficult at times, especially for me due to my circumstances. People view you differently than you view yourself and you can't know what they really think. Misunderstandings happen.

[damp]

... You're not entirely alone in that.

It must be frustrating feeling like no one can understand the things you do.

[peripheries]

Really?

Sometimes, I feel like I'm so far behind and apart from everyone else that I'll never catch up.