allstarz / jacopo

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[damp]

But... you wanted to apologize, didn't you?

[ well, that is probably more for jacopo than morgana. and this jacopo doesn't remember so maybe it doesn't matter. ]

[obdure]

I guess I did and I made attempts.

[ At least based on what they saw. ]

I don't think I would have gone anywhere if I didn't, but... I am here without recollection, so I can only assume how I'm here. Not in this murder game, but you know. [ Existing as he is rather than existing in how the memory depicts? ] Or perhaps I'm here to atone. That would be funny, wouldn't it?

[ His smile stays quirked, though lopsided. He does think it's humorous? ]

[damp]

I think you should be done atoning by now.

[ He's still... unsettled, and sighs. ]

It'd probably be better not to even remember any of that. I hope you at least got some good memories out of it too.

[obdure]

[ He should be done, huh. ]

Then this is all just me being unlucky.

[ Being here in this murder game? Is it not a curse? He doesn't seem that bothered by it, but it's four weeks in already. You have to get used to things. ]

Good memories during this week? That would be nice if they get broadcasted instead, even though I'd rather not have my memories blasted out there.

[damp]

If your issue is being unlucky, then at least you're in good company.

[ Poor Rupert and Caiman. ]

Me too, but... some of the ones I've seen aren't that bad. [ ... ] Okay, just one.

[obdure]

[ A short laugh. They really are all unlucky. ]

Just one? [ ... ] Did you want to get it off your chest? I won't ask questions after.

[damp]

Oh, it wasn't mine. [ it was totty's ] My memories aren't that bad.

I mean... I'm just a kid who swims.

[obdure]

... You think it's rude to ask for a little laugh?

[ sorry totty ]

[damp]

[ Ponders. ]

One of his brothers went and got a haircut that he thought was really cool, but actually looked terrible.

So he and his other brothers agonized over how to tell him, except then a girl showed up and started brutally insulting his hair.

[obdure]

.... Oh. That's... Bad.

[ Smiles....... Then ends up laughing. ]

[damp]

So then Matsuno-san's brother... said that he was forced to get that haircut because Matsuno-san and the other's bullied him.

And Matsuno-san and his two brothers got in trouble with their oldest brothers.

[obdure]

[ what is this show EVEN ABOUT ]

Having siblings sounds like good entertainment without TV... Sometimes I wish I had one or some, but maybe it's for the best that I don't.

[damp]

[ thinks about totty gate soon ]

Why would that be for the best?

[obdure]

... The Bearzattis used to be part of the Sicilian mafia, so we have a bad rep even though we've long parted with the criminal lifestyle. It's been a century, to put a number to it.

If I had siblings, they'd have to deal with gossip and prejudice.

[damp]

[ Frowning. ]

Like you have?

[obdure]

[ Thinks on it. ]

Yeah. My family moved around a lot in Italy because of it. Sometimes it got in the way of them getting promotions at their jobs... Or simply we weren't welcome in the neighborhood. I dealt with smaller problems at school. Not a whole lot, but sometimes there will be a kid that would say I'm a criminal like my family.

Got framed for stealing once when really my classmate never actually lost their phone. They just plain lied... But as kids we were all stupid. I don't have much excuse for adults when my friends would invite me over and they'd look at me a certain way. You'd think as an adult, you'd try to support children because they're actually innocent.

[ ... ]

But that was then. It isn't so bad now. I can better ignore gossip and whispers.

[damp]

[ Damn. ]

I'm sorry, Jacopo. It's frustrating... To be treated like that, and to have no way to fix it.

[obdure]

I think it's simple. I just have to show them that they're all wrong.

What's opposite of a criminal? A hard-working and dutiful citizen in society.

[damp]

Is it tiring?

... Feeling like you always have to prove yourself?

[obdure]

Don't you feel that way? You're an athlete. I don't think I nearly have it as bad.

[ Except it is a more intrinsic desire, in the end. It isn't just about modern Capitalism and Status, but we can't always be aware of our low self-esteem. ]

You have to show the world.

[damp]

[ He shrugs. ]

I'm asking because it is tiring. For me.

[obdure]

The struggle is part of the process... But yeah. It can weigh heavier on some days, lighter on other days.

[ why must you use so many words to say yes ]

For me, it'd be easier if people minded their own business.

[damp]

I feel like you'd say that even without your family history...

[obdure]

No one has any business being interested in me aside from my capabilities.

[ RIN, YOU ARE SO RIGHT... ]