allstarz / alex

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[bxkautx]

Not really? Sure, it's unpleasant. I... get that. But they'll get over it.

[damp]

What do you think getting over it means?

[bxkautx]

Not caring anymore.

Not getting upset, not getting hurt. Not wasting their time on that kind of thing anymore.

[damp]

... That's not always it, you know.

Sometimes it's just not letting it stop you from moving forward, but sometimes it always hurts. You can't always just erase every terrible thing that happens.

[bxkautx]

[ thinks about this... ]

... I used to think I didn't ever want to stop hurting. Like if I did it would be... cruel, I guess. Like the idea of not hurting anymore was the same as just deciding it didn't matter anymore, and I didn't want that.

I kind of miss hurting.

But I did stop. And everyone else will too, eventually.

[damp]

[ He's not irritated by her perspective, even if he doesn't agree. And even if it kind of frustrates him...

He's just trying to make sense of it. ]

How long did it take you?

[bxkautx]

Eternity.

[damp]

...

You know, a lot of people don't get that long.

[bxkautx]

Good. They wouldn't like it.

Anyway, I do think they could learn to care less sooner than that.

[damp]

[ Furrows his brows. ]

Would it bother you if they didn't?

[bxkautx]

They'll just make things harder for themselves if they don't.

[damp]

So it's about people not having a hard time?

[bxkautx]

... It's annoying for everyone.

[damp]

Sorry, people are kind of annoying.

[bxkautx]

They could be less annoying. Maybe then I'd like them more.

[damp]

You don't like people...?

[ he is standing right here ]

[bxkautx]

Not really.

[ sowwy... she's mean now... ]

[damp]

What do you like then?

[bxkautx]

The same stuff I always liked, I guess. I don't know.

[ pointless question. ]

What do you like? Besides swimming.

[damp]

[ Struggles. ]

Running?

[bxkautx]

Wow.

[damp]

It's hard to think of stuff on the spot!

I mean, I like my family, my friends, my family cat.

[bxkautx]

I agree.

What's your family like?

[damp]

[ Starts smiling automatically. ]

My mom's the kind of person that's always upbeat. She's been through a lot, and it took time, but she raised me and my sister on her own so I admire her more than anyone.

My sister's a lot like her; kind, thinks the best of others... But she has a bit of a temper. That's the one thing we have in common.

[bxkautx]

Sounds like you get along.

[ also thinks it sounds like he and his sister are more alike than he thinks, from what little she has to go on here? this was week 0 but still. she has seen him. ]