[Oh, no. Rosamund will move her hand across his back, letting it become half a hug around his shoulders.]
Rin. I know how you feel. Okay? I do. It's not exactly the same situation, but it's close enough isn't it? Being made to go on like this. Watching the wrong people pay the price.
[ He will let her, the fight is pretty much entirely gone from him after execution. Eyes still closed, voice so defeated. He doesn't want to be here (general, not specifically here with rosamund) anymore. ]
...And I killed the first person I felt any true connection with here. [Not a teammate. But that it had to be Vi still rips at her in ways she can't articulate.] Someone I liked very much.
It's...it's very hard to believe you're worth anything. After a thing like that. Kindness starts to hurt.
It's hard to move forward when you're hurt by something you don't know how to fix. When people say it's not my fault... that's worse. Because it means there's nothing I can do to make sure it doesn't happen again.
[She listens, keeping still. Present, hopefully not cloying even as she stays close to him.]
I know. These places take so many of our choices away from us, but it still feels like things we did with our own hands. In a way, it is. But these aren't things we'd do, if we were anywhere else. If we had any choice.
I don't know how to move forward either, Rin. The best I can say is...try to help people while you're here. While your mind is your own. Maybe by the end, we'll have been able to make some amends.
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Then puts a hand to his shoulder, moving a step closer.]
Rin.
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Is it something you can tell me about? Get it off your chest?
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Siffrin died when it should've been me.
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[Oh, no. Rosamund will move her hand across his back, letting it become half a hug around his shoulders.]
Rin. I know how you feel. Okay? I do. It's not exactly the same situation, but it's close enough isn't it? Being made to go on like this. Watching the wrong people pay the price.
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Is it?
I got my teammate killed.
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It's...it's very hard to believe you're worth anything. After a thing like that. Kindness starts to hurt.
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It's hard to move forward when you're hurt by something you don't know how to fix. When people say it's not my fault... that's worse. Because it means there's nothing I can do to make sure it doesn't happen again.
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I know. These places take so many of our choices away from us, but it still feels like things we did with our own hands. In a way, it is. But these aren't things we'd do, if we were anywhere else. If we had any choice.
I don't know how to move forward either, Rin. The best I can say is...try to help people while you're here. While your mind is your own. Maybe by the end, we'll have been able to make some amends.