[ haru is improving, but not wholly changed. he's better at leaving his phone on, but he won't clear his notifs. essek is a tragedy, he knows and feels it, but selfishly he's still grateful it wasn't rin. he'll hug rin, but still doesn't put any force into it, holding him gently. ]
it's a little easier than last time, in many ways. he's more prepared, knowing what will be asked and demanded of them. planning ways to avoid hurt, steeling himself for the tragedies that they can't dodge. but in terms of anxiety, it's the same—still worrying that one of these days, rin will end up alone, and there'll be nothing he can do about it.
so he holds onto him, too. he is both grateful and guilty that he can loop his arms around rin's back and stay there for at least a day longer. ]
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I might.
[ haru is improving, but not wholly changed. he's better at leaving his phone on, but he won't clear his notifs. essek is a tragedy, he knows and feels it, but selfishly he's still grateful it wasn't rin. he'll hug rin, but still doesn't put any force into it, holding him gently. ]
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Promise me more than that, Haru.
[ But he won't give him too hard of a time. He's knows that... He must've been scared. That he doesn't want to wake up to a repeat of last time.
Still holding on tight. Shouldn't it be easier the second time around? ]
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it's a little easier than last time, in many ways. he's more prepared, knowing what will be asked and demanded of them. planning ways to avoid hurt, steeling himself for the tragedies that they can't dodge. but in terms of anxiety, it's the same—still worrying that one of these days, rin will end up alone, and there'll be nothing he can do about it.
so he holds onto him, too. he is both grateful and guilty that he can loop his arms around rin's back and stay there for at least a day longer. ]
...I'll try. Promise.
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he feels terrible that he's relieved it wasn't him, and that it wasn't haru, but there's nothing he can do about that guilt...
so he's just going to keep clinging ]