Haru. [ Ugh. Feeling guilty... He's lifting his head, idly pushing his bangs back as he considers what to say. ] You don't have to feel bad about our fight at the end of the Reaper's Game.
You were just telling me how you felt. I'd rather you were honest like that, than keeping silent to spare my feelings.
[ rin doesn't need to feel guilty, he was right back then. and as much as he doesn't really want to talk about feelings, he may as well say something when it's just going to get broadcast out of his brain anyway. ]
...You're important to me. I don't want to hurt you again. I don't want to do the wrong thing and... push you away.
[ though he will, inevitably. he's even seen a memory in the future where he'll get possessed by some blonde guy and lash out at rin for no reason? he takes hold of rin's arm without really thinking about it. ]
[ Looks at him for a moment. Haru is more caring than most people realize, but even to Rin, he can be as unknowable as the sea sometimes. It still catches him by surprise to get glimpses into he depth of the affection Haru has for him. ]
Haru... [ Frees his arm so that he can reach over to nudge Haru's face toward him. ] It's okay to be worried. I'm worried too... I don't want to mess things up just because things are changing with us.
But we've hurt each other and pushed at each other so many times, and we're still here. After all these years, we can both afford to have a little confidence in us.
[ Bonks their foreheads together. ]
Besides, you need bench at least 20 more kilos before you get strong enough to push me away for good.
[ bonk. he shuts his eyes for a second upon (gentle) impact, embarrassed at how much this means to him. feelings are mortifying. yet rin manages to make his heart skip a beat, even when he's being annoying.
they share their fears as much as anything else. and he's sure he'll still get spooked and anxious and uncertain no matter how many pep talks they have, but there's anticipation, too. I wouldn't have done this if I didn't believe in us. ]
...You'd better stay strong enough that I don't outdo you.
[ he settles in again, but keeps his head resting against rin's. this is fine. ]
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[ still holding his paw. this is nice. ]
You're just embarrassed. It's okay.
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If you want my attention so bad, Rin, you can use your words and not your teeth.
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Rests his head on Haru's shoulder. ]
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after a few seconds, he cants his head to rest it against rin's hair. slowly, carefully.
I'm afraid of scaring you off, too. ]
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[ Rudely reads his thoughts. ]
How?
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[ like haru didn't do the exact same thing earlier.
I already broke your heart once. ]
It's nothing.
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Haru. [ Ugh. Feeling guilty... He's lifting his head, idly pushing his bangs back as he considers what to say. ] You don't have to feel bad about our fight at the end of the Reaper's Game.
You were just telling me how you felt. I'd rather you were honest like that, than keeping silent to spare my feelings.
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...You're important to me. I don't want to hurt you again. I don't want to do the wrong thing and... push you away.
[ though he will, inevitably. he's even seen a memory in the future where he'll get possessed by some blonde guy and lash out at rin for no reason? he takes hold of rin's arm without really thinking about it. ]
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Haru... [ Frees his arm so that he can reach over to nudge Haru's face toward him. ] It's okay to be worried. I'm worried too... I don't want to mess things up just because things are changing with us.
But we've hurt each other and pushed at each other so many times, and we're still here. After all these years, we can both afford to have a little confidence in us.
[ Bonks their foreheads together. ]
Besides, you need bench at least 20 more kilos before you get strong enough to push me away for good.
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they share their fears as much as anything else. and he's sure he'll still get spooked and anxious and uncertain no matter how many pep talks they have, but there's anticipation, too. I wouldn't have done this if I didn't believe in us. ]
...You'd better stay strong enough that I don't outdo you.
[ he settles in again, but keeps his head resting against rin's. this is fine. ]