[ as her memories are now, she still believes what happened was real to some length. She still believes they were lives she lived until she suddenly believes everything isn't real. ]
I thought it was more real than anything else, and now... it's hard to say what is. When I realize it was fiction, and I realize I was fiction.
[ if her own world didn't have spirits being fucked up by what's false simply because it's what too many believe, she'd be closer to breaking than she is. ]
[ Personally, that sounds pretty horrifying to him. Like having the rug of his entire existence pulled out from under him. ]
If it felt real, then it was real, to some extent. [ "It's not real," is what he said after his own adventure. But the hurt was real. The sights were real. The struggle, and the hardship. ] ... Uh, I don't know if that makes things more confusing.
I just mean... It was something you experienced, but it's not what you are... now.
[ Oh, it's not a position that he's seen her in before, and, hesitantly, he walks over to sit next to her, setting a hand on her shoulder in the hopes that it's... grounding, in some way. ]
What are you questioning the most?
[ He looks around, just briefly around the room. ]
You don't have to make sense of it all at once. Even something small could be significant.
[ Wow, that's a loaded question. He feels like an after school special might tell her to explore her own thoughts and feelings, and decide that for herself, but he doesn't think an identity crisis is quite the same when manufactured by this game's cruelty.
He squeezes her shoulder. ]
You're the goddess of water, a famous figure skater with fans around the globe, and you were summoned to fulfill a contract to save the world.
Your life as the Swan Princess... Those are experiences that happened to you, but that's not your real life.
Because maybe I don't know you as well as some of the others, but I know you're upfront about who you are.
And you've never given me any reason to doubt it. You're not even pretending to be okay right now, even though it can't comfortable for you to be uncertain in front of me.
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It's a ballet, right? About a princess that's turned into a swan?
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[ ... ]
I had to live through different iterations of it.
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He's bracing himself to hear the same from her. ]
As a swan... looking for love? [ ... ] Did you believe it was your real life?
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[ as her memories are now, she still believes what happened was real to some length. She still believes they were lives she lived until she suddenly believes everything isn't real. ]
I thought it was more real than anything else, and now... it's hard to say what is. When I realize it was fiction, and I realize I was fiction.
[ if her own world didn't have spirits being fucked up by what's false simply because it's what too many believe, she'd be closer to breaking than she is. ]
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If it felt real, then it was real, to some extent. [ "It's not real," is what he said after his own adventure. But the hurt was real. The sights were real. The struggle, and the hardship. ] ... Uh, I don't know if that makes things more confusing.
I just mean... It was something you experienced, but it's not what you are... now.
[ Is he making any sense. ]
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she is trying to find something to focus on as real, so even if all her experiences were real, she can separate it all out in her mind.
she holds her head, and she shakes her head. ]
I'm not sure about much right now.
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What are you questioning the most?
[ He looks around, just briefly around the room. ]
You don't have to make sense of it all at once. Even something small could be significant.
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she doesn't know what she wants to say or if there is any one answer to his question. ]
Which life is the correct one.
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He squeezes her shoulder. ]
You're the goddess of water, a famous figure skater with fans around the globe, and you were summoned to fulfill a contract to save the world.
Your life as the Swan Princess... Those are experiences that happened to you, but that's not your real life.
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she listens, but she's still grappling with it. ]
How do you know for sure?
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Because maybe I don't know you as well as some of the others, but I know you're upfront about who you are.
And you've never given me any reason to doubt it. You're not even pretending to be okay right now, even though it can't comfortable for you to be uncertain in front of me.
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... Hm. It's true there are some feelings I'd prefer to keep to myself.
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[ He won't pry too much, but... ]
Did you see anyone there? In your life there, who's here too?
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[ she barely paid attention to sqq. he's such an nonentity to lambda, unfortunately. ]
I saw Yang Guifei.
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What was her role?
[ in the story, he means ]
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The other girl. The one he fell in love with or was going to get married to.