Because the alternative is that they don't blame me for killing them—and I don't want to be told that my friends will let me kill them. I want them to live. Even if sometimes I'm the reason why they're gone, I want them to live.
[but that answer comes so fast, so sharply that buzen seems to wince right after.]
... but I don't want to take my frustration out on you.
I know that my emotions are - tougher than usual right now. I don't know what to do with a lot of them.
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[but that answer comes so fast, so sharply that buzen seems to wince right after.]
... but I don't want to take my frustration out on you.
I know that my emotions are - tougher than usual right now. I don't know what to do with a lot of them.