homo: buzen

[damp]

itp: dudebros

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[hasteful]

You'd probably be too embarrassed to.

[THIS DIRECT ATTACK but he's just grinning anyway, bumping shoulders with rin]

Do I get to know who it is? I'll keep it a secret, promise. I won't even tell Matsu.

[PEAK SECRECY]

[damp]

[ grits teeth why is buzen so charming even when he's attacking him.

unfortunately, rin is too busy being embarrassed, looking down at his bottle. ]

Why do you want to know, anyway?

[hasteful]

[hehe....]

Mm... no special reason, I guess. You're my friend, so I want to know things about you.

I hope that's okay.

[damp]

[ that is such a pure answer that rin has to sigh, stilling from where he's been fiddling with the bottle cap. ]

For that reason... It's okay, I guess.

[ ... ]

It's still kind of hard to say.

[ it's confusing ]

[hasteful]

[hmmm.

buzen will just look over curiously, but patiently]

What makes it hard?

[he at least knows that however he and matsui happened was... unique and probably not at all what humans go through]

[damp]

[ he seems to be giving it some thought, trying to sort out his thought process ]

I can't tell if it's because... I don't know, if it's because it's genuine or because I'm sad I missed out on it when I was alive.

[ he rubs his neck ]

I never thought about dating much back home, but there's a lot of couples around here, and it seems... nice.

[hasteful]

[he tilts his head, curious]

... you're really thoughtful about your feelings, Rin.

[as opposed to buzen who follows impulses like chasing his friend instantly just because he started running]

I never really thought about dating or anything like that either - not until here. I guess... it is nice. I love Matsu more than anything, so it's just another way to show him that.

But if you have the feeling in your heart... I think it's okay to want to explore it, even if you're not sure. It's not like you'll be more sure if you delay it, right?

[damp]

[ Buzen's approach is so much better. ]

Uh, I guess. I don't want to leap into anything without being a little sure.

[ worry ]

And things are fine the way they are. I don't know if I could handle being rejected.

[hasteful]

[ . . . tilts head]

... who is it...

Who would reject you...

[damp]

[ who wouldn't? rin's self-esteem issues are so embarrassing ]

Normally you wouldn't just assume everyone likes you that way...?

[hasteful]

I think I've said plenty of times already that I like you, Rin.

[as a matter of fact, without much embarrassment or shame. his smile is soft]

You're someone who's both strong and kind. The idea of not being fond of you in some way is pretty confusing to me. So regardless of anything, if you care about this person, I'm sure they care about you too.

Romance is just... extra, isn't it? So maybe they might not want that extra, but they definitely still care about you as a person.

[damp]

[ presses the bottle to his cheeks to keep from overheating... ]

You're probably right. I don't even know if I...

[ anyway, he still doesn't have the courage to say it out loud but buzen can have a mental image. ]

[hasteful]

[oh




he just ruffles rin's hair about it]

You'll be fine.

[damp]

[ ?!

he looks SO bewildered ]

What do you mean?

[hasteful]

I'm even more sure that you'll work it out.

[SO CONFIDENT]

Because it's you and Haru-san. [HE JUST SAYS IT] Even if you fumble and get awkward, you'll always come back together. That's a bond that doesn't even compare to things like romance or kissing.

So try it, if you want, but you'll both be fine.

[damp]

[ AAAAAAA he's going to die ]

I never said I wanted to kiss Haru—

[ he's such a pathetic loser man

but I did lmkngbsfh ]

[hasteful]

Why not? It's fun. Haru-san's probably nicer than Matsu about it. Unless you don't want him to be nice about it, I guess.

[THE BLUNTNESS OF THIS IS PROBABLY A LOT]

[damp]

What?! He probably... he probably kisses with his eyes open like a weirdo.

[ again, he really can't imagine haru kissing anyone human.

still, muttering to himself, ] Not that I've ever kissed anyone either. I don't know if it's better to be nice about it or not.

[hasteful]

... but you kinda want to find out, don't you?

[teases....]

In my opinion, start out nice but biting and the rest of it can be exciting too.

I mean, Yuyu-san had a point about kissing practice if that's a thing you want to do.

[damp]

[ He can barely get worked up being teased when Buzen starts talking about biting and practicing, surprised at himself that he's still standing. ]

Are you offering...?

[hasteful]

Oh. Sure. If you want?

[he wasn't really but also now he is apparently]

[damp]

[ stares at him for a long time







too risky ]

... It's okay. [ gathers his breath ] Thanks for listening.

[hasteful]

What?

[he's already laughing, confused]

What's risky?

[damp]

[ while dying inside, but wanting to say it before he ends up thinking something even more embarrassing, ]... I think it'd be too nice.

[ he'd also say that he doesn't want to betray matsui but he's 100% sure buzen would never do anything if he thought it would upset his beautiful partner ]

[hasteful]

[i went back and forth on this a couple times but like

buzen is a creature who follows impulses and doesn't second guess them, so he just laughs a little before closing the distance between his mouth and rin's. it's not some overly romantic thing, just a sweet and swift little kiss]

You deserve nice things.

But there - hopefully you won't have to be nervous anymore.