[ A frown tugs at his lips, frustrated at hearing Buzen say that, but he tries to keep it off his expression, instead furrowing his brows like he doesn't quite understand. ]
Partly, at least. Like I said, I'm always going to want impossible things. But at the end of our missions, I might be gone and unless they find my sword somewhere... that history is always going to be uncertain.
It's kind of you to want better for me, Rin... but most of humanity has already decided that I'm expendable.
[he looks thoughtful for a little bit, before he explains - ]
[ angry, ] You're not expendable. No one is expendable.
[ his hands tighten into fists, getting angrier. he is just an angry guy. ]
You're not an object to use and discard—neither of you. Anyone with a heart deserves the chance to exist and be happy. Is your history so important? Can't you live for the future instead?
[ so worked up, he doesn't even let buzen reply. ]
[ The tense line of his shoulders relaxes just a bit, and he glances away. He understands. He gets the significance of the weight on Buzen and Matsui's shoulders but, at the same time... It's not enough to appease him.
Sacrifices have to be made, that's what he's learned during his time here, but there are some things... Some things that shouldn't be surrendered. ]
I know. [ He purses his lips. ] But it's hard to accept that you aren't able to enjoy it too.
... I guess. For now, we can only try to make good memories here while we can. I don't think it's enough, but.
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Why not? Because you're a sword?
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Partly, at least. Like I said, I'm always going to want impossible things. But at the end of our missions, I might be gone and unless they find my sword somewhere... that history is always going to be uncertain.
It's kind of you to want better for me, Rin... but most of humanity has already decided that I'm expendable.
[he looks thoughtful for a little bit, before he explains - ]
It's why I got erased here, after all.
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[ his hands tighten into fists, getting angrier. he is just an angry guy. ]
You're not an object to use and discard—neither of you. Anyone with a heart deserves the chance to exist and be happy. Is your history so important? Can't you live for the future instead?
[ so worked up, he doesn't even let buzen reply. ]
Even if you don't believe me...
[ he's RIGHT ]
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I believe you. I get it. I think that it's important to have those moments of happiness too.
... but history is important, because without history, there is no future. And I want to protect history, so you can have a better future.
You know?
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Sacrifices have to be made, that's what he's learned during his time here, but there are some things... Some things that shouldn't be surrendered. ]
I know. [ He purses his lips. ] But it's hard to accept that you aren't able to enjoy it too.
... I guess. For now, we can only try to make good memories here while we can. I don't think it's enough, but.