[ He frowns when Buzen mentions the others blaming themselves, not surprised by it but at the same time wondering how they could possibly when they'd all tried— they'd all tried so hard.
On some, logical level he knows that Buzen is right; the expectations were too high. They should direct their anger toward the Game for dragging them into that situation—and for what? Just to torture them? Break their spirits? Wow, who would do that.
Still, it's hard to believe in this moment when the hurt is so fresh. It's hard to imagine that it'll ever stop hurting. But he'd thought that when D had first killed him too, hadn't he?
He lets Buzen's words sink in, quiet before he smiles a little. ]
The you in there thought I was pretty cool, you know.
[ It's a shift, because he believes Buzen. He really does. But he's not ready to forgive himself yet. But at least now it seems more possible than it had before. ]
but buzen tilts his head at that, and answers so honestly - ]
That sounds right. The me here thinks you're pretty cool too, after all.
[and he sounds so sincere about it? he really does admire rin... he thinks that as far as humans go, rin's probably one of the strongest. he has such a kind heart that can withstand so much, after all]
Mm. I'm happy for it too. We don't really get a chance to be this honest with people... so thank you, for receiving my honesty and still not changing your mind about me, Rin.
Even if we have to go on different paths once we leave here - I'll remember you. Make sure you accomplish your dreams so I can brag about you, okay?
Then... I'll be grateful. To even be remembered, then I'll always exist.
If you could... Matsu and some of the other Gous are out there for viewing sometimes at the museums they're in. The Matsui Gou, the Kuwana Gou, the Kotegiri Gou...
They'd be happy to see you. I worry they get lonely out there sometimes.
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On some, logical level he knows that Buzen is right; the expectations were too high. They should direct their anger toward the Game for dragging them into that situation—and for what? Just to torture them? Break their spirits? Wow, who would do that.
Still, it's hard to believe in this moment when the hurt is so fresh. It's hard to imagine that it'll ever stop hurting. But he'd thought that when D had first killed him too, hadn't he?
He lets Buzen's words sink in, quiet before he smiles a little. ]
The you in there thought I was pretty cool, you know.
[ It's a shift, because he believes Buzen. He really does. But he's not ready to forgive himself yet. But at least now it seems more possible than it had before. ]
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but buzen tilts his head at that, and answers so honestly - ]
That sounds right. The me here thinks you're pretty cool too, after all.
[and he sounds so sincere about it? he really does admire rin... he thinks that as far as humans go, rin's probably one of the strongest. he has such a kind heart that can withstand so much, after all]
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Really? [ Buzen is so generous- he can hardly feel bad for greedily taking all his kind words. ] I think you're really good too.
I'm really glad I met you, Buzen.
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Mm. I'm happy for it too. We don't really get a chance to be this honest with people... so thank you, for receiving my honesty and still not changing your mind about me, Rin.
Even if we have to go on different paths once we leave here - I'll remember you. Make sure you accomplish your dreams so I can brag about you, okay?
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[ He's just a swimming guy, and he wants to swim so bad. ]
I'll remember you too. Maybe I'll read up on the Buzen Gou... Even if there isn't much, I'll find whatever there is.
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Then... I'll be grateful. To even be remembered, then I'll always exist.
If you could... Matsu and some of the other Gous are out there for viewing sometimes at the museums they're in. The Matsui Gou, the Kuwana Gou, the Kotegiri Gou...
They'd be happy to see you. I worry they get lonely out there sometimes.