[ haru was rude and mean to him enough during their school days, so this just makes them even, probably. rin frustrates him on the regular, and even now, where he just wishes rin would magically understand him without haru having to try to pick and choose words for his feelings.
in lieu of that, he tries to communicate a little. ]
Because I didn't see how you really felt. Or what you really wanted.
[ rei had to explain it to him—a complete outsider to their problems. a third party to tell them both how stupid they were. ]
I want to help you. Because... you showed up all the sudden and changed everything. Forever. For the better.
[ he owes rin more than he seems to understand. ] You showed me something I'd never seen before.
[ His eyes widen slightly at that answer, confused and a little overwhelmed as he tries to grapple with Haru's reasoning. It doesn't make sense to him, that he could've done something so important, when Haru was always as distant and unchangeable as the sea.
But he had changed. Grown and blossomed like a beautiful spring. When had that happened? ]
You're... as incredible as ever, Haru. [ Both the tension and the fight drain out of him, one of his hands pressing flat against Haru's chest, feeling his heart beat a moment before curling to grip the fabric. ]
I'm sorry. For saying that I wouldn't swim with you again.
[ he's not sure if rin will ever realize the truth: that haru is just an ordinary person, or at least waiting to be one. there's nothing incredible about him. he was just a quiet, stubborn, recalcitrant child who met someone dazzling.
he reaches, tentatively, to grip rin's wrist, pressing his hand closer against his chest. like this gentle hold might be enough to keep rin close this time. ]
...Good.
Don't say it again. You have to keep going.
[ he respects rin's dreams too much to watch them crumble. ]
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in lieu of that, he tries to communicate a little. ]
Because I didn't see how you really felt. Or what you really wanted.
[ rei had to explain it to him—a complete outsider to their problems. a third party to tell them both how stupid they were. ]
I want to help you. Because... you showed up all the sudden and changed everything. Forever. For the better.
[ he owes rin more than he seems to understand. ] You showed me something I'd never seen before.
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But he had changed. Grown and blossomed like a beautiful spring. When had that happened? ]
You're... as incredible as ever, Haru. [ Both the tension and the fight drain out of him, one of his hands pressing flat against Haru's chest, feeling his heart beat a moment before curling to grip the fabric. ]
I'm sorry. For saying that I wouldn't swim with you again.
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he reaches, tentatively, to grip rin's wrist, pressing his hand closer against his chest. like this gentle hold might be enough to keep rin close this time. ]
...Good.
Don't say it again. You have to keep going.
[ he respects rin's dreams too much to watch them crumble. ]