[ Rin supposes that he shouldn't be surprised by this answer, Haru had always been stubborn and he'd never pretended to want anything but to be in water.
But then again, the last time he'd seen Haru really spoken to Haru at length, they'd been twelve years old. ]
... And? We're not kids anymore, Haru. You have to give it more thought than that.
[ He continues on despite Haru's hint about not wanting to have this conversation. ]
Do you want to swim competitively? As a coach? Get another job, and swim as a hobby?
[ he has to bite his tongue to counter by pointing out that they're in the midst of a murder game, and that none of that really matters. because he'd just tried to convince rin that they were going to win this.
he huffs quietly instead. ]
I don't care about any of that. I'll just do what I want, when the time comes.
[ originally, he wasn't even planning on returning to competitive swimming. ]
[ his voice is flat but the underlying Annoyance is loud and clear. ]
No. Too many people concern themselves with it. [ why does everyone bother him about this these days? ] You worry about things like getting scouted and school.
[ for an instant, he does feel bad—really bad, actually. he didn't mean it that way, but he knows this is a sore spot for rin. it's not ground he wants to retread.
but he's also upset that rin won't let this drop, this thing that he's been afraid of even before he "died," and now he has to think about it on top of the thread of his entire existence being erased; he turns to face him fully, unusually tense. ]
Rin. I'll help all of us get home. But that's it. Don't talk to me about what happens after.
[ he's going to walk away because if he stays any longer he's absolutely sure he's going to lose it. ]
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But then again, the last time he'd seen Haru really spoken to Haru at length, they'd been twelve years old. ]
... And? We're not kids anymore, Haru. You have to give it more thought than that.
[ He continues on despite Haru's hint about not wanting to have this conversation. ]
Do you want to swim competitively? As a coach? Get another job, and swim as a hobby?
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he huffs quietly instead. ]
I don't care about any of that. I'll just do what I want, when the time comes.
[ originally, he wasn't even planning on returning to competitive swimming. ]
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What do you mean you don't care? It's your life.
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It means I'm not concerned. So why should you be? I told you it doesn't matter.
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What? How can you say that? Why wouldn't I be concerned when I—
[ wait, hold on ]
When... you're not taking it seriously! Someone has to be concerned about it.
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No. Too many people concern themselves with it. [ why does everyone bother him about this these days? ] You worry about things like getting scouted and school.
[ just let him hide in a pond somewhere. ]
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Is that some kind of joke? Do you have any idea how much I do worry about it? But for you— for you it could be so easy—
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but he's also upset that rin won't let this drop, this thing that he's been afraid of even before he "died," and now he has to think about it on top of the thread of his entire existence being erased; he turns to face him fully, unusually tense. ]
Rin. I'll help all of us get home. But that's it. Don't talk to me about what happens after.
[ he's going to walk away because if he stays any longer he's absolutely sure he's going to lose it. ]