... I cannot bring myself to regret giving her the benefit of the doubt, or trying to settle things nonlethally at first. I stayed true to who I am, and I'm not ashamed of that.

[maybe it makes him naive. that's fine.]

But... knowing that I brought my team down and what is at stake if I don't return home alive—it would be a lie to say I have no regrets at all. So yes, I do feel guilty about failing to survive that night.